I'm excited to have a baby. My husband is excited for us to have a baby. And we're in a place where we can afford and take care of the new addition to our family.
But I'm also scared.
After my struggle with endometriosis, I have no idea how hard it will be to conceive. We began trying last month and I downloaded the Ovia Conception app for my ipod. I've answered all 700+ questions and have been logging my data every day for the most accurate results.
I believe we got pregnant last month - or close to it, implantation maybe. I felt queasy and nauseous, my breasts were tender, I had no appetite, and I felt my stomach tightening. I knew it in my bones that I was pregnant.
On the fourth of July, my husband's band had a show at the fairgrounds, so we went around noon to set up his gear. It was the hottest day of the year, about 102 degrees, with little wind and no shade. I was miserable.
If I hadn't had an umbrella, I'm sure I would have passed out from heatstroke, it was that hot!
The next day, I was in physical pain from the heat - I didn't have sunburns because I used an umbrella and lots of sunscreen, but the heat had taken a definite toll on my body. It was like a flu or hangover.
And then the bleeding began. I felt as though something had been lost, I was suddenly in tears and had intense cramping.
So we didn't conceive this cycle.
This time, we're taking it as it comes. I'm taking prenatal vitamins (the full 800mcg of folic acid) and have stopped drinking altogether and lowered my intake of Pepsi - I really love Pepsi, unfortunately.
And I'll keep ya posted.