Chris has been playing a lot (he's a musician, and it's the summer-time show rush) and that means a solid 8 hours of my day on show days in support of his band. I know my wording in that last sentence sounded a bit snarky - sometimes going to shows is just plain exhausting. I stopped drinking back in May to prepare my body for a baby and being in bars and around drinking people has become one of the most trying experiences in my existence.
I used to be quite the social drinker, actually. I liked the buzz and I liked the conversations and fun that came from a table full of drinking friends. Now, watching as they all get drunk around me, I feel left out, bored, and exhausted by the slow decline into drunkenness. It's like watching a movie over and over. You know exactly how it ends, you know all the parts in the middle, and you probably fast-forward through the beginning because it's the slowest part of the whole thing.
Watching people getting drunk is exactly the same. For a while, we're all on the same page and having the same type of fun. Then, slowly as the night goes on they think they're getting funnier and having more fun while I'm watching sloppiness and weird behavior.
Anyway, this became a rant about me not being able to drink at this point in my life. I don't know that I want to drink, anymore, but it is bothersome that I'm trying so hard to be healthy and I haven't even told most of the people around me that we're tying to conceive. So, frankly, they probably think I'm the weird one for being in a bar and not drinking.
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